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Day Six of a Seven Day Devotional for Ex-Gays

be still

Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. - Psalms 46:10

I love quiet. I love the serenity and the peacefulness that has become less and less prevalent in today’s world. Have you noticed the chaos around you? Everyone has an opinion. Everyone is posting. This individual is responding to this individual. We all have Instagram, a website, a YouTube channel, but there’s one problem – very few of us are listening. It’s just a whole bunch of noise at this point. What’s absurd is all of this is happening in the middle of a pandemic lockdown! While we can’t even decipher right from wrong or the truth from a lie any more in everyday conversation, there is still one boldly proclaimed truth that is as great today as it was when the apostles healed the sick.

In all of the chaos, no one wants to be still anymore. Everyone has to be affecting something at all times because, of course, not doing something means we’re doing something wrong, right? No, not exactly. It’s okay to be still!

If you choose to leave the LGBT lifestyle, decide, stick with it, and then be still – no matter what. I remember homosexuality becoming the most celebrated lifestyle in this country shortly after I was delivered. I found it difficult to believe that the same lifestyle God chastised me for living was making others rich and famous. It made absolutely no sense to me. Why was I rebuked, and so many others doing the same thing were prospering? Despite my doubts, I stuck to my decision. I remained steadfast because I knew if I ever went back to homosexuality, chances were I would never get out again.

Since being delivered, I have never once slipped or backslid into the life I lived before. I’ve cried out to God with questions many nights, but I’ve always remained set in my decision that long-term, this is what God wants and requires of me even if it hurts. I encourage you to be still, friend. Let God be God!