Day One of a Seven Day Devotional for Ex-Gays


When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, because she thought, “If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed.” Immediately her bleeding stopped and she felt in her body that she was freed from her suffering. - Mark 5:27-29


I remember the first time I heard Josh Wink spin live. It was my junior year at Berklee College of Music. My friends and I decked ourselves out in fresh club gear – baggy jeans, trendy tees, sneakers, and of course, glow sticks. His set was flawless and tailored like a New York bestseller. It had an introduction, suspense, and build paired with a crescendo. His climax was appropriately marked by one of his biggest records to date, “Are You There?” When that record came on, the club exploded because everyone who paid the club cover that night had received exactly what they came for. I still remember that night as if it were yesterday.

I pose this question to you. Are you there? Have you really anticipated this moment? There is no club cover to pay as our Lord, the Christ, has paid the price of your freedom on an old rugged cross. There’s no amount of good deeds or praying you or I could ever do to pay that price. In fact, He loves you so much that the moment will cost you nothing.

Honestly, most people anticipate everything but deliverance. We crave money, romance, success, and promotion, but the very thing that guarantees our spiritual well being – His grace – is often overlooked. Yet, to partake of the well of life, you must desire Him as much as He desires you. He’s like many of us. He comes with strings attached. Christ requires truth. He requires submission and the one thing most LGBT fear, refuse, or downright hate – change.

If you don’t want to change, no devotional will help. If you don’t want to be delivered from sodomy, cross-dressing, transsexualism, or lesbianism, then don’t be delivered. Be the best homosexual or transsexual you can be. I most certainly was! I was such a good, committed homosexual that I was rewarded with trophies, plaques, cast in a film, and graced the pages of magazines for years. The LGBT lifestyle has its perks in modern-day society, but it’s become evident to me that it wasn’t worth my soul. No woman was. No sex reassignment surgery was. Nothing was or is worth my eternal well being.

Ask yourself and meditate on this question. Do you really want to change? If you lose every friend, your gay marriage, perhaps your soul mate will Christ be enough? The next few days could very well change the course of your entire life – even eternally. I need to know. Are you there?